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words fail me

it pains me greatly that i can win or lose a job, based on how well i can write about the photographs i will take IF i get the job

pictures should work WITHOUT words: its an international language that 'speaks a thousand words' isn't it?

since the beginning of my photographic time, ive been railing against pictures that need an essay to explain them

(almost all of the photos in my degree show at PCL had lengthy descriptions explaining what you were looking at, except mine which were falmbouyant colourful portraits of my friends from the club 'smashing')

conversely, ive also railed against nice looking pictures that don't say anything at all: like a pretty person who opens their mouth and just air comes out.

regardless, most of today was spent TRYING to write a good treatment for a brief, for a job, that 3 other photographers will also be writing treatments for on how we'll do execute the photographs IF we are chosen to exectute them

all of us being judged on our writing skills more than our photography

paaaaaaah

i HATE competing for anything

in father and son races at the kids' schools, when the competitive fathers who had brought their running shoes with them launched forward on the GO whistle, i'd deliberately take a step back then skip along behind them

i like to do things well: i take pride in everything i do

but when someone wants to compete with me, i immediately cede

which is kind of strange because i used to be very competitive, and would often win competing in swimming races.

now i am confident in myself and what i do: i do not have to compare myself to anyone else

Perous Secret Diary - Keep Out: October 05, 2022